Judd, Party of 3!

WOW...that is all I have to say! I mean I expected to happen, but this soon? I am trying to wrap my head around it and yet to have the "OMG I'M PREGNANT" feeling of joy. I am excited but I am not sure I am EXCITED. More scared shitless! But I know that is normal or at least common in new moms. I have friends that I have been trying for so long, I know their excitement would be through the roof, it sorta makes me feel undeserving of such a precious gift. But do all moms, even those wanting a child so badly, really have that euphoric feeling right off the bat? I feel that it would be impossible to be really really ready. I have met a few and kudos to them, hell of a women that is ready to change their life in nine months and be prepared to do so at the drop of a...sperm...in this case. So until I either start getting fat (well fatter, already changing before my eyes) or I can feel this tadpole, I think I still might be in disbelief. But now in disbelief not drinking alcohol or coffee...could be a long trimester!

Till next time.....me and my tadpole are going to pray for no morning sickness!

The lost art of communication!

 I write this not for any specific reason, but it has been on my mind a lot lately!

What are people so afraid of? Why is talking versus writing so intimidating? I have been watching this trend lately (and I am at fault for this too) of people avoiding conversation. But what are they really avoiding- confrontation! I hate it too, but sometimes, a good conversation can cure almost any problem. But TALKING- not emailing or writing and by all means, NOT texting, people can understand what a person is trying to say. Looking at eyes and body language and mannerism, inflections in the voice! That is all part of the art of communication! So many times things are horribly miss communicated because and email does not deliver sympathy or emotion. It can how so ever deliver a raw message which is just as horribly miss communicated, leaving a person to feel shocked and without recourse! Where is the other person opportunity to rebut, defuse, or protest if the deliveree is unwilling to allow that communication. In a simple (or not so simple) conversation-preferably in person- you can read a person for what they really mean, not what you assume. It is just as bad as listening to hearsay and assuming the worse! Guess what, problems don't get solved by assumptions. There, I said it, you have got to COMMUNICATE with your voice if you want people to understand your thoughts! So there it is, plain and simple. Stop writing out of fear that someone is going to hurt YOUR feelings and man up. Allow others to help you understand whatever it is that you need to work out. Buy not giving your friends, family, or colleagues a good ear-full, you might be missing what you need to hear most!

Bad at Bloging?? Survey Says: YES

OK so I was really gung-ho about this blogging thing. Thinking that I could be that one random person that has cool enough, off the cuff comments and thoughts that Oprah might find me amusing and I could get famous....well I guess I would have to blog to actually get noticed! Again one more thing I have started then pissed my way out of! I promise my faithful 3 that I will write more often! Like about Oklahoma and how it really is a back-ass- wards state. Or my new endeavors at work and that I would like to shoot myself now...but hopefully in 10 weeks, life will be at peace again, cus my man is coming home! Woot Woot! And we can blog together, cus lets face it, HE is the witty one and I just look pretty (sometimes).

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we are judd......

There is a million reasons why people write. For education, for venting, for fun, to get famous. I guess I have a little of every reason for starting a blog. I have always wanted to write and let people hear my thoughts. Lord knows I say enough of them out loud. But mainly I am looking for something new. So boredom, I guess? But not because my husband is gone or because I need one more thing on my plate, but bored with my own existence. I need something new.  All those things that you were going to do by this certain age and in this certain capacity doesn't happen, then all of a sudden "now what?" I still have the same fucking needs to do more with this life as I did when I was "young and ambitious"... I think ambition left sometime during my 6 year of college, when I became an adult. And now here I am, with a great life that I did not see coming and......bored. So maybe a blog will do it?? And better yet, we'll let hubby be involved, hence "we are judd." He's there, I'm here. He'll write and I'll write and it'll be a virtual journal of shit no one cares about...but it will be Judd shit. Our values, thoughts, and points of view that makes us one person in many ways. And with that frame of mind, I look on to the unknown future and all it's mystery...maybe the written world will reveal something new for us because at this point, I just pray that I find myself doing something other then sitting on my ass in 3 years waiting for something great to happen...time to make it happen. So that's it- why I am writing a blog....so hopefully Oprah will see this and put me on her reading list!